suicide ideation, mentioned experimenting, mad scientist, child soldiers
She hadn't had the nerve to...talk about this, before this. She had come back to a Pandora that was different. Gio was gone, Lavi and Sinbad were...well, they were still doing their thing. But she felt out of place. Lenalee....sitting at home, at DI, was nice, and comforting, but something always felt wrong.
And it wasn't wrong with them.
It wasn't Pandora that had changed. Someone that she had loved had left, yes, leaving her feeling like part of her world was missing, but that was Pandora. Lenalee had changed, and she loathed it. With what she knew now, there were questions that she needed answered, answers that she wasn't sure she'd be able to accept. If she was....if the Innocence she bore was truly...that, was everything that had been wrought because of it on her head? Should she have let herself die on the Ark, instead of letting everyone sacrifice so much for her?
Wouldn't it have been easier? Kinder?
Lavi was home, and Lenalee sat on the couch with empty eyes, waiting for him to come in.
When he did, her words were simple.
"When were you going to tell me?"